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Rachel Bryk, an active developer for the Dolphin Emulator[*] project, passed away on the 23rd of April at the age of 23.
While this is hardly the kind of news that would shake the tech world and be featured on major news site, I think the SoylentNews community can fully appreciate her work and commemorate that tragic loss with the team and the retro gaming and TAS community at large.
Most of her work was focused on making the Dolphin more suited to make tool assisted speedruns.
A full announcement and commemorative post can be found on the official Dolphin project blog.
Dolphin is an emulator for two recent Nintendo video game consoles: the GameCube and the Wii. It allows PC gamers to enjoy games for these two consoles in full HD (1080p) with several enhancements: compatibility with all PC controllers, turbo speed, networked multiplayer, and even more!
(Score: 4, Interesting) by Anonymous Coward on Monday April 27 2015, @12:08PM
Nobody is. I have had chronic depression my whole life. Nobody notices, even when things get really bad. I let people I care about not notice, even when I'm suicidal. No one can help anyway. They think they can, putting guilt and shame on a person unable to bear it simply by offering too much support. If it isn't the temporary sort most people go through, you have to find a way through it all alone.
Don't be like the majority. Don't mourn the loss of someone that didn't want to live, but don't antagonize or criticize either. With depression, finesse in perception and emotional interaction has material consequences. Acceptance is best.
(Score: 0) by Anonymous Coward on Monday April 27 2015, @01:32PM
You ever tried counselling?
(Score: 1, Insightful) by Anonymous Coward on Monday April 27 2015, @02:29PM
Yeah. Six psychiatrists over the years. After a few weeks they all say the same thing. Paraphrased: The way you have responded and coped with your life experiences is perfectly rational. Well isn't that a punch in the face. It is rational to want to die having gone through what I have. Medication doesn't work either. It just makes me angry for no reason or sleep.
Some say it is a deep existential depression. People say that sort is permanent and has no cure when you think too deeply about stuff for too long. I disagree, but only because it is a coping mechanism that works.
The best thing I can say to anyone that has seemingly never ending depression is that it may not get better, but you do. Eventually, slowly, you get better at doing things. Like how someone who has lost a limb learns how to live a normal life, but will never regrow the limb.
If only I could get the rest of society to accept that it is okay if someone wants to be dead and looks like they are losing it. That does not mean that they don't have respect or can't be happy for others or can't get things done. It is a strange but satisfying feeling to be experiencing what is a nervous breakdown but you have went through it so many times that it barely slows your work down. The hardest part eventually becomes smiling and pretending to be something you are not. That is probably what Rachel here could no longer accept. Life would be so much better if everyone wasn't expected to be an extroverted optimist.
(Score: 2) by q.kontinuum on Monday April 27 2015, @02:49PM
Afaik, a psychiatrist is a medical practitioner who can only help you, if something is wrong with you, not if something is/was wrong with your environment. Did you try a psychotherapist instead?
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(Score: 0) by Anonymous Coward on Monday April 27 2015, @07:38PM
The way you have responded and coped with your life experiences is perfectly rational
That is when you get mad not more depressed.
You are dealing with an industry that builds itself on psudo-intellectualism. You will deal with a *LOT* of people who dont really care and think they are good at it. It is not your fault it is theirs. Sometimes money makes people think what they are doing is a good job. When it is further from the truth. Move on and just try the next dude. I am sad to say in that field you will have to go thru a lot more than 6.
Do this. Find a group (or groups) try them out. But not for the support, they will spew the same goop. Ask for references (your real mission). You will find 'oh try this dude he is amazing'. After awhile you will see some patterns. For example I have been misdiagnosed for years with my eyes. Found the right doctor and my eyesight is actually the best it has been in 40 years with a lower prescription than I had before and judging by my eyesight recently I need to go down again. I have been thru no less than 10 different doctors over the years. My current dude rocks. I to got him thru no less than 5 different people recommending him.
Getting the right doctor is a chore but *very* worth it. The best part is they are a dime a dozen. So you have lots to sift thru. The downside is 'time wasted' but you learn to find the ones who are any good pretty quickly.
(Score: 2) by q.kontinuum on Monday April 27 2015, @02:22PM
I think, professionals can help. It's amazing, what a few micro-gram of [missing/surplus] [hormones/chemicals] can do to a brain, and this might be fixed, if your depressions are physiologically caused. Might be different if they are based on some trauma or other psychological precondition, in that case it would probably take a lot of hard and unpleasant work to get out of it.
I had a depressive phase myself (self-diagnosed, so take it with a grain of salt if it really qualified as a depression), and for me the problem was the "thinking in circles". Problem A leads to problem B leads to problem C leads to A. Thinking in circles, ever faster. For me, suicide was no option because I didn't want others to blame themselves. Instead I took insane risks, until I started smoking weed one day. Suddenly my thinking went "A->B->C->...wait, why don't I take a branch out to D?", I stopped smoking weed some time after, and didn't touch it for > 10 years.
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