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Subsentient (1111)
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Programmer, Linux guru, agnostic, socialist, a hardcore and very serious Utilitarian, leftist on most issues.
Fucked up, disgusting sense of humor. Has no shame.
Journal of Subsentient (1111)
Lately I've been working on some goofy projects like WZBlue, my gtk+ lobby monitor for Warzone 2100. But there's other projects I'm having trouble getting any momentum going again. Two good examples are my packrat package manager, which has stalled, and NEXUS, which I want to add ignore support to, but haven't had the drive to actually complete that work. I simply seem to not give a flying fuck.
I don't seem to care much about my normal projects anymore. I enjoy working with GTK, my latest pet, but I'm in the process of learning C++, which knocks the steam out of any C-based GTK+ projects I might envision. I already know C very well, so I'm expanding to be able to read and write C++ as well.
I'm always tired from the still-untreated chronic exhaustion, and coupled with this severe lack of motivation, I find myself watching south park all day and sleeping constantly. I haven't done much coding beyond my little WZBlue project in the last two months.
A couple months back, I wrote a crude AI in Javascript for "High Oil" Warzone 2100, called RatBot, but it's not done and has some strange and rather severe bugs I need to work out. For one, it performs far better in non-networked skirmish than multiplayer, which really, are the same thing, except skirmish has no networking. I've ran into such severe bugs, I kinda stopped working on it altogether for a while. I think of all the projects on the table, that's the one most likely to get me working again.
I'm not a depressed person, I've never been diagnosed with depression, and it usually takes a decent sized reason for me to get all depressed. They've tested my thyroid, it came back normal. No anemia, or sleep apnea.
What am I going to do...
(Score: 1) by throwaway28 on Thursday October 08 2015, @09:56PM
. . . there was life outside of the laptop screen; replying to the above post would be a perfect time to extol the virtues of such an existence; but if I'm writing here, it means that life outside of the laptop screen, does not exist.
(Score: 2, Insightful) by Ethanol-fueled on Friday October 09 2015, @12:24AM
Yeah.
I like what Metallica's James Hettfield does -- he puts his guitar in its case, then puts that behind his couch, and forgets about guitar for 6 months or so.
Then, when he opens the case and starts playing again, he is revitalized.
So...fold up the laptop and shove it under the bed?
(Score: 2) by Hyperturtle on Saturday October 17 2015, @05:05PM
Yes, I suggest you give that a shot. Step away for a bit when you can.
Sometimes, absence makes the heart grow fonder, you know.
(Score: 0) by Anonymous Coward on Wednesday February 13 2019, @05:37PM
or you find out that you don't miss it and realize that it was a hobby turned into a self imposed duty
(Score: 2) by juggs on Friday October 09 2015, @05:25AM
You mention depression... that would certainly tie in with lack of motivation on older projects and sleeping a lot of course. But I don't think that is you, you are clearly motivated on your new projects rather than festering in your own rat droppings and being entirely depressed.
As much as you (and I) may hate this suggestion.... you'd do well as a project starter in a big corp.... see the opportunity, kick off the project, define it and lay down the bones, then leave others to complete it. I believe it is called creativity... no wait... that's treatable with drugs now....
What you are going to do (I would suggest) is stop the introspective and recognise and embrace your talents then move on to realising that your skills are not in the code, they are in the vision you have before you begin to code.
Be well. Be Ratty :P